It is one of man’s desire to love and be loved…hoping that one day they will find the person who is meant for them and feel complete…Love comes in an unexpected place, oftentimes, we get carried away by our feelings…blinded with the belief that we finally met the “one” who will spend the lifetime with us…How many times did our heart become broken? How many times did we asked ourselves why until now we are still single? Why no one seem to notice us?? and other so many whys…and if onlys….I can say that, single people are very blessed and I wished that I never rushed things in my life….
Tell me his name
I want to know
The way he looks
And where you go
I need to see his face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end
When Martin asked me to marry him I feel so happy…why wouldn’t I be happy? It is one of a lady’s dream to receive a proposal from a guy they adore…Little do I know that the joy I had will only be for a short time…I loved him…I was afraid to lose him so I gave in and accepted his proposal…hoping that it’ll help us straighten the misunderstandings we often had…but it doesn’t! It worsen things later on…
Tell me again
I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night
When I’m here all alone
Remembering when I was your own
I have learned that in a relationship it should be a two – way street…both are giving and receiving…both are striving to strengthen their love…I was wondering why he suddenly became cold and unaffectionate…Why most of the nights he was out of the house and some days he never bother to return home while I was there in our room waiting for him…hoping that nothing bad has happened to him in his way home….why can’t i stop crying and feel left out…
I let you go
I let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I let you go
Now that I have found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow
What have I done wrong that I deserved this way? Why did he marry me if hasn’t shown love? Why he can’t perform his marital obligations? Why is there a wall between us? Why do I love him so much it hurts me?? Questions popped out of my mind…When I noticed that things were not working out right I talked to his mom and asked for help. She told me to talk to Martin’s cousin because he has something to tell me…I was so puzzled…I was so scared…I was shocked when his cousin told me the truth…but then again, I confronted him to clarify things…Martin confirmed me it was true he’s gay…he wanted to love someone else…He was crying so hard that night…I was crying so hard, too…It was a mixed emotions…I was angry with him…I pity him…but I told him that whatever past he has I accepted him for what he is…I remembered I was hugging him so tight that night for the first time…Things dont stop there…The time has came when we both have to say goodbye…our marriage didn’t worked out right…
Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time
I was filled with emotions the day we parted…The thought of him, the man I vowed to love for forever, walking farther and farther away from me was the hardest part. I was afraid to let go that I embraced him closer to me hoping in those moments I could walk again the paths where we once travelled and bring the clock back but……everyone is owned by God and that everything happens through His Will and Power.
I was holding my tears back as I kissed him goodbye for the last time……It was difficult to accept the loss…it was unbearable….I gave him my last look memorizing every detail about him, squeezed his hand , I thanked him for the little space he gave me in his side and then I walked out of the room…and never looked back again..There were moments where I remember him…i hope he’ll remember me and the good memories we have shared, too…I wish he’ll have happiness eventhough— that happiness is not shared with me…
It is time to pick up the pieces of my life and to start a new life again…to heal and to find love in the right time…in the right place…my journey still continues….
